1780) I have dysmorphia/dyphoria about my chest badly even though I’m thin I feel like it’s so obvious in spite of binding. I can’t stand it. I dress and undress, smooth it and flatten it, recheck and make certain nothing ‘sucks in’ around my waist to make me look feamle-y. I self I.D. as trans, f2m or neutral gender but people ID me as a guy sometimes and butch-andro lesbian others, and it galls me to be labeled by others…even in an LGBTQ counseling class at graduate level where I have self I’D’d as gender queer there are people who are lgb but not t’s; I feel that this is disrespectful and irritating for them to call me a woman and lesbian- very assumptive of them. I want on T and I want a dick. I use mine well, and feel right, for the first times in my life, when I do wear, have and use it…finally feel complete and ‘correct’. I can pass sometimes and love that, and also enjoy the confusion of others- so to have obvious disregard for my gender occur within the (usually lesbians, calling other women ‘ladies’) gay community is especially irksome. I wish I looked more masculine I guess, plain and simple.

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