This is a place to submit secrets and thoughts about being a female to male (FTM or F2M) trans person, regardless of transition status. Some posts might be triggering. Tags being used:
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3614) I feel that at the moment, only one I can be myself with is this amazing friend I met through net. He doesn’t know of my trans history. He treats me like just any other guy. Every other people I know seem to treat me like “that dude that used to be girl”. I wish I could go stealth already.
3609) Lately in my country there are more attacks on trans* people reported. My partner got beaten up not so long ago. I’m so scared for him. I’m scared for his life and his safety. I don’t know what to do.
3608) On Valentine’s Day, my mom gave me a card that says really big on the front “Daughter” Every time I think about it, or see it, I completely break-down. I have never been so hurt in my entire life.
3604) I recently found a lump in my breast and eventually found the courage to go to the doctor. All the time I couldn’t help hoping it would be something that would let me get rid of them. And when the doctor smiled and said it was just them growing it took everything I had not to cry.
3603) My boyfriend is the most amazing person I’ve ever met. He struggles with being accepted from his family who just doesn’t understand yet he never gives up. He manages to rise above and be the bigger person. His strength and conviction lets me know we can take on the world together and his kind heart ensures me that he is the perfect role model for my son. Dreams do come true…mine did. Never give up
3602) I am so envious of FTMs whose bodies seem to just crave testosterone, like their bodies always knew and missed the testosterone they are now receiving. They change so rapidly and so beautifully. I’m almost four years on testosterone and these hips haunt me in my sleep. I wish I could gain muscle as quickly, have the hairline as masculine, and have the bodies that some of these guys have.