This is a place to submit secrets and thoughts about being a female to male (FTM or F2M) trans person, regardless of transition status. Some posts might be triggering. Tags being used:
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3835) I used to get terribly dysphoric about tampons even more than my actual period, but ever since learning they were originally invented to plug bullet wounds they’re all I can stand to use because it makes me feel really badass that I can bleed for a week and not die and have to use a bullet wound plug to keep my clothes clean.
3834) How do people deal with choosing between losing their identity and losing their family? I come from an Asian conservative family who believes in the most ridiculous stuff about homosexuality and transgenderism. I grew up in a household that emphasize respecting elders. Came out and was shoved back into the closet. I’ll never be able to medically transition if I don’t tell my family to fuck off but I can’t bring myself to do that. Can any Asian ftms help me? I don’t know how to deal.
3833) I spent the weekend with my trans boyfriend and his parents. I’ve never heard his birth name/wrong pronouns used so many times before. I don’t know how he handles it. There were so many times I just wanted to say his real name out loud just to remind him that I know exactly who he is on the inside. I’ve always respected him, but this weekend made me see exactly how hard it is. His parents would rather see a miserable daughter than accept a happy son…I just hope he knows I’m here for HIM.
3832) I am sometimes dysphoric about my voice, but that is when I can’t sound like a guy when speaking or singing a tenor voice, but I’m relatively proud to be able to sing Coloratura soprano parts. I sometimes like to think of myself as a treble or a CounterTenor, with an amazing falsetto.
3831) My dad is horrible. He told me today that “I’m not taking you anywhere if you don’t shave your legs. No daughter of mine is going to look like a hairy beast.” He also made fun of my weight today. I’m so done.
3827) I came out to my girlfriend, but i think this is too much for her. Even when she says “it’s ok, babe, i’m with you”. I really love her, but since i’m pre T, she stills considering herself as a lesbian.
3826) I sometimes feel like I don’t fit in with FTM community because i haven’t started taking T yet. I still get misgendered a lot but I am afraid to correct them. I often wonder if I am ever going to have the courage to stand up one day and say that it should be he not she. I am very proud of being trans, I’m just scared that i no longer fit in.
3824) I love my skirts and lacy tops etc.- after all, I picked them BECAUSE I liked them- but I can’t wear them without 1) being misgendered and 2) looking down and seeing my chest, which makes me sick. I only want to wear stuff like that occasionally, but it upsets me that I don’t have the option.
3823) It was first time I self harmed. I was satisfied because, you know, I hurt the body part I hated since I hit puberty. So I decided to repeat it. Afterwards I did it once or twice again, other things bothering me so I was even more dysphoric.
3822) Today I met a transgirl today during a county fair, she was super nice and when she figured out I was a transguy she surprisingly asked me out. The first thing she said was “I wish we could switch bodies” and that’s when I knew she was my soul-mate.
3821) I’m afraid to come out to my mom. Our budget just barely pays for our bills, and I don’t want to push us anymore into poverty. But at the same time I want to get out of pre and finally start my new life.